I’ve said in my previous diary: I’ll start to write again when it feels right…Well, I’ve found this place and decided to make myself comfortable, to settle down and “unpack” first things first.
I’ve changed my DDHome because I’ve changed. Or so I would like to think anyway.
How often do we want to see ourselves as changed for real, while only changing outside cover? I have no illusions about mine. I’m – still the same and it is my perceptions that have been changed, really…
And now it is time to sum up previous experiences, to draw a line and say – “I was – there, and I am – here now”. Things I’ve learnt and things I still need to learn – they endless. As endless is my quest for learning. In the end of a day this is exactly what Miss Tick supposed to do, according to Mr Pratchett: The Exploring Of The Universe.
A bit about where I stand at the moment. I want to make a note of this as I’ve discovered recently – people do change and I’d like to be able in some time to go back here to see how I’ll change. Once again…
What Is Miss Tick?
I’m the one, who thinks a lot and writes those thoughts whenever finds a spare minute.
(This is not a good thing for readers, as most of those thoughts are generally random and meaningless)
I ask a lot of questions. To myself. I actually think, that most of questions I’d ask – in fact – the answers…(hmmmmm…that doesn’t make sense, but probably does make a point – I do not expect someone to give an answer, although, any comments will be welcome)
I’m a hypocrite. But a “good” one (if there is such thing!): I say things I sincerely believe I am, AND THEN they turns out to be completely untrue. Like, for example – I’d say that I’m a wise and reasonable. Next thing you know: me running away from the problems instead of trying to sort them out.
I am a coward. True – I’m afraid of consequences before actually do things. From the other hand – I’ve adopted that “close eyes and jump” theory – I do do things on impulse. Sometimes this doesn’t do me good. Those “sometimes” happened more often then the other way.
I love logic. I try to find it in anything. Often – where there isn’t one.
In contradiction to the above, I live more by emotions and imagination. I often put my own thoughts in other ppl’s mouth and assume that’s –what they meant to say. I understand this is bad and I’m working on it. My new credo – “Things Are As They Are”. Accepting is my Ultimate Target. We’ll see how I’ll get there (if I will).
I think, that’s enough for the start. I will add things later, as they will come out of hiding inside my head. At the moment let’s just get on with the mission statement:
Explore My Universe.